Heather’s World in Review

HAPPY 2010! So its a new year for most of the world. And in a few short more hours, it will be a new year for the entire of the world. My new year will start in a little over four hours. What will this new year bring me aside from another year of aging that I do not want…? I do not know.

So new years is a day where many people make resolutions for things they sincerely wish to change, things they wish to accomplish, or things say they want to do just for the hell of it. I don’t know when this tradition started; nor do I really feel like doing any research on this to come off as some educated person in the history of “New Year’s Resolutions.” Are you making any resolutions? I know I am going to make a few myself. Will I be able to keep these resolutions? Are they outrageous and unobtainable? Or, are they modest and quite easily to maintain should I just put in the little effort necessary? Only my laziness will tell. Or, should I say, only time will tell…

Now, I was sure I was going somewhere with this blog entry. I promise that I was. However, one thing you might not be aware of is that I have a little six year old that loves to give me attention. I will send him away and tell him to leave me alone while I try to finish typing this. He will leave, and come back within literally sixty seconds. I swear, I could send him away right now (again) and count down in my head and his little personality will pry it’s way back into my thoughts distracting me from whatever I might have been trying to get out of my moving fingers.

Now it makes me feel like a bad mother to ignore him when I hear him going “Mama, mama, mama!” and he says something else. That something else I have to block so I can type my little heart away to feel sane. I get to listen to him going on about something and the fireworks pop outside to start the celebration a bit early for the area. Fireworks are the only thing that bring me back to the topic at hand: New Years.

That being said, let me state my personal goals for this year quickly before I get distracted again:
- at least one entry a week here
- bass lessons
- three miles a day at least four days a week.

Honestly, the hardest one in the list will be thinking about what to put in this blog. I always clam up when it comes to typing out my thoughts. “What if someone were to see what I really think? THEY COULD JUDGE ME.” Yea, that’s how it goes in my head. I need to get over this childish feeling that people might actually look down upon me because I might think something differently than the major masses. In the long run, honestly, who cares? I like how I think: I THINK THAT WAY. I shouldn’t have to hide what I think just to make some people I don’t even know happy.

Bass lessons should be the easiest of my goals to complete. I already have a very sexy looking bass which I LOVE. I just need my new bass books to arrive. I DO need to get unlazy (new word to add to dictionary…) to sign up for some professional lessons of sort with a real person. I want someone to actually observe how I play and give me tips to improve playing style and goals.

Walking a few miles every day shouldn’t be hard. I mean, I was doing it for a good bit of this past year. I just let my anger or disappointment get a hold of me sometimes and I just shutdown on doing anything. I need to use my anger and disappointment to motivate me to go further than the few miles I want to do. It can really help improve my mood. I noticed a few times when I forced myself to walk the miles that I was actually happier the entire day rather than stewing in whatever emotion I was feeling before.

Side note: My kid just disappeared. Oh, now he’s back giving me a hug. I thought I was going to get off with some more solid quiet time with the thoughts in my head. How can I get irritated when he intrudes (with a hug) on the little bit of peace I might get each day? Maybe this is a topic for another entry later…

Any topic is going to be fair game these days. News, Religion, Raising Children, suggestions?